Utterly Ashamed

Never before have I had two women in my life. I am a two timing novice. I feel like the master of deception. I feel utterly ashamed. I wanted to interrupt Meryl yesterday evening as she was blethering on about a recent modelling assignment for a wide fit shoe company but I didn't have the guts. I wanted to pull her aside, hold her in my arms and drown in her perfumed hair and body. Then I'd have reason to end it with Pat, because yes folks it has started. Oh yes. I am aching from the carnal gymnastics I have been performing over the past two days. I still love Meryl but she gives me no inkling that the feeling is mutual. Our relationship is like siblings rather than lovers. Take last night for example, we had a light and healthy smoked salmon and sweet potato supper, watched Corrie and she went home. All very well but we've been together for over a month and our most tactile moment was when she squeezed past me in the kitchen to empty the bin. Meanwhile I have Pat texting me absolute filth and requesting my company for a bit of 'How's your father.' What is a man to do?